I Wanted to Be....Great

Ah. there is nothing in this life that can be compared to the moment you realize you have nothing you aspire to be. Not a hero, like a child. Nor popular like a teenager. Not a wife or mother, a grand mother, or even a wealthy independent. I have always been content to be just what I am, which isn't really anything. lol Just me.  I'm sure I have my strengths and weaknesses. I know I fail sometimes, but I also shine in moments of greatness, just the same as any other. In this, I am unique and normal at the same time, a contradiction, and a paradox, for how can someone be destined for great things if they have no great dreams?? There is simply no way. No starting point for the wonders to be born from. All greatness starts when one person realizes that they are worth more then what they are selling themselves for. That there is more out there then the small world they have trapped themselves in. That is when dreams come to be....the moment you allow yourself to have them, and believe.

Muzings of a Depressed Ninja

Fighting the emptiness. You imagine that you would be good at it, when the time comes for you. That when the whole world seems dark and grey; on the sunniest of days, you hope you have the strength to just get up in the morning, and are unsure how your day will end; Unsure if you will remember it when it is done. You might think that you can be more then what you are all by your lonesome, that you don't need God or good friends and family. But when a time comes such as this, and all you think about is your endless failings, and what you are unable to accomplish, how weak you feel....it will eat you alive. You didn't even have a chance, so, no matter how you think it will go, you are wrong. Don't believe me? You will when it happens to you.
    But do not despair before your time, you yet have much to live for, and your days remain filled with light. Relish the freedom of mind you now possess. And endeavor never to release it, in search of anything better. As long as you have God, and his children in your life....this may never happen to you. Thank Him every day you have your innocence, and saver it.